What Should I Do?

I always sleep with earplugs in since I'm a very light sleeper. Last night I wish I hadn't though because maybe the monitor beeping that it needed to be plugged in would have woken me up. Normally I would never sleep through it. At 4 am I woke, not believing that Charlie had slept so long without waking. Wow! How great. But not really, the monitor was off and so I have no idea if he actually slept that long or screamed for an unknown amount of time and went back to sleep. I felt so bad not knowing and lay awake for about an hour thinking about my sweet little Charlie screaming.

But I do know that he should be old enough to start skipping his 1-2ish am feeding. So now that he's (maybe) cried it out one night, maybe it will only take one more to get him doing it (or at least the books say most kids take only 1 to 2 nights if you use that method - though I'm not sure it works in this family... Davey would cry and cry for weeks and then he'd sleep maybe 8 hours for a couple months and then have to cry it out all over again). I'm torn between feeling like it's cruel to have made him cry it out one night and not use it to mine and his advantage by using it as the first night of training him, but it also feels cruel to let him cry when he very hungrily takes that feeding. He lunges at me when I pick him up.

I'm sure everyone else will say now is the time to go ahead and skip the feeding, he's old enough anyway, but I hate letting/making my sweet little Charlie cry. He is such a good, sweet baby I don't begrudge him those middle of the night feedings...